Author’s
Note: This is another creative piece I created. It is a diary entry just about
some thoughts that I had in my head.
Dear diary,
The last couple of weeks have been awful. Because
one of my best friends who’d I’d known for ever has become every distance
lately. We used to do so much together, we’d talk and hang out all the time and
do a lot of things together, but now nothing. Sure maybe a few things here and
there, but only when she’s not with her new BFF Suzie. When we do talk Mandy is
always talking about her, she’s obsessed I tell you, obsessed. She always
saying where’s Suzie, I wonder if Suzie’s here, I’m going to go by Suzie… blah
blah blah. Yes it’s great and all that she has found another friend, since a
lot of people don’t like her and she doesn't like a lot of people. But, when we
do talk it’s always about Suzie, I just can’t take it anymore.
I've only got one class with Mandy that doesn't have Suzie in it and that is band, so we don’t get to do much talking, and if we do
she talking to someone else anyways. The other two classes that I do have with
both of them are math and gym. When in math if Mandy ever needs help guess who
she goes to, Suzie. And in gym whenever we run, play a game or anything she always
has to be by and talk to her, and now lately this other girl in our gym class, Kayla
has kind of jointed our little group and so the three of them always talk and
leave me out, so again I feel invisible. And worst of all I have a different
teacher as them, so when we do split up I’m all alone. I mean I guess I could
always make new friends within my class, but they are all in their own group…
how can I put this so you understand, their own “cliques”.
So, if and when Mandy does come up to me I sometime
try and not talk to her or I act like I’m mad at her. Occasionally she will be
like, are you mad at me, did I do something wrong, or what’s wrong, because if
I did something you know you’re supposed to tell me so, I don’t do it again.
And I’m just like whatever and walk away. I shouldn't have to tell her
anything… should I? No, I shouldn't I’m sure she has felt left out before and
she knows what it feels like, so no, no I shouldn't have to tell her anything.
I don’t even know why I’m making such a big deal about this I mean, I have
other friends, but I just don’t what to lose Mandy as a friend. I’m deciding on
whether I should talk to Mandy about this situation or not. If I do we can
probably somehow work this out, but if I don’t then she might not ever know and
it might not ever get resolved.
The only other person I've told was my other friend
April. April and I tell each other everything, and I mean everything. So when I
told her about this she actually didn't seem so surprised. I think we both
could see something like happening, but I never thought it would actually
really happen. April thinks that I should just completely ignore Mandy
entirely. But, then I thought about it and thought that if I did then I could
lose a friend, and especially one that has meant a lot throughout the years
because of all our memories.
Even if I do get a little mad or annoyed with this situation
sometimes, I still do like Suzie as a friend. I just wish that sometimes Mandy and
everyone else in the world could see and tell when someone is feeling left out.
